Addiction

When you hear the word addiction you probably think about the big ones,the ones you hear about needing rehab for, the addictions that ruin relationships and can cause riffs in families. But, did you know there is another addiction than can have similar effects but isnt talked about. This particular addiction is literally right in the palm of your hand...smartphones.
I unfortunately have an addiction to my smartphone and it is awful! Having a smartphone I have easy access to addicting social media sites where instead of being a doting wife and loving mother I'm looking at what Sally had for lunch and the fact that Tina and Jim broke up again. during this season of life, ya know the one were I'm raising tiny humans, is that information really that important...no. I mean its wonderful Sally had a salad for lunch and I'm happy Tina broke up with Jim since he treated her like dirt, but how does knowing that better my life. Honestly it doesn't, but then why do I spend hours upon hours scrolling mindlessly through these social media sites. To be honest I have no idea but with having the computer in the palm of my hand it's so easy to pick up and start scrolling. Now I will admit it sometimes I need a mommy timeout which is a fine time to start scrolling, for a set amount of time usually when the kids are having quiet time since naps are non-existent right now.  But not scrolling for hours or setting social media as a higher priority.
When my children get older I want them to remember me as a good mom,a mom who tried, a mom who played, not a mom with a phone attached to her hand and always looking down. I've already taken steps to solve that problem. I've deleted all social media and internet off my phone so it is a "basic phone" until my phone contract is up. I've set time limits and on my certain times of days when I can be online.  Unfortunately That means pictures of the kids will be less frequent. But I promise you'll still see them. And since I just received a kindle and we have a home computer I'll still be blogging. So no worries about that. Hopefully I can keep this up especially since its almost January 1st meaning it's a new year to start fresh!

XO
Leah

Getting my life back!

A little backstory since 2012 I have had on and off pain. Sometimes I could go months with no pain others i was in and out of the hospital. Since having Saul in July I have been in constant pain. In and out of the hospital. My depression worsening, feeling like I was living in the fog of just trying to make it through the day. Its been rough. I couldnt do the things I loved because they caused more pain, heck just getting out of bed was painful. All this pain was physical and emotional.  Finally I had enough. I thought I knew what was causing this pain and I needed it out! After speaking to my doctor we set a date to get my ovary and my appendix removed. Keeping our fingers crossed that this was the answer. Surgery day came and I was a mess! Ive had many surgeries in the past but having surgery as a mom is hard! I had so many fears going into surgery regarding my children and my husband, and of course worry that after surgery the pain would still be there. Surgery went off without a hitch and that day I was feeling great! Other than recovery pain the pain I was feeling was gone! It was as if the block in my body was removed and my right side felt empty. Two weeks later I feel terrific! I have not felt that pain since surgery day. I am now so excited for life! My depression is so much better, I am happier, enjoying my children and my life. I finally have my life back! Im excited to get back on bike, and do yoga without the pain holding me back. Heck I even enjoy my household chores! It blows my  mind how much my perspective on life has changed since I am pain free. To be quite honest I am so incredibly exhausted from Saul not sleeping but I am happy and oh so thankful!

XO
Leah