A baby! At this point and time we have no idea if boom boom (what we call the baby, actually hannah gave the baby his/her nickname) is a boy or a girl, and we won't know until boomer makes an entrance.
People have asked me if I have a feeling what boom boom is. And I can honestly say I have no idea anymore. This pregnancy is the exact opposite of Hannahs. I'll be 27 weeks on Friday and I'm still sick unfortunately, with hannah I was finished at 10 weeks, cravings are different, heartbeats are similar, favorite hangout spot is similar. So as far as old wives tales go it's pretty even
With hannah I knew she was a girl and found out I was right a little over 20 weeks. With this baby I could have sworn that I'm carrying a boy. I would bet my house this is a boy. But as the weeks go on my feelings of boy have gone away and I just do not know. I did confess to kyle that in all honestly I do not think I can carry boys. I know it sounds ridiculous but I swore Presley was a boy and ultimately we lost that baby. So in my mind I can only carry girls since I carried and delivered hannah.
Whatever Gender this baby is I'm so excited either way and I can not wait to meet this little one. As the pregnancy goes on I do go back and forth with calling the baby a he one day and a she the next since I do not like the term "it" but I have no idea who excatly this person is. It's funny though, with hannah I had to know her gender I was going crazy until I found out. With this baby I'm okay with not knowing. The suprise is quite exciting, and it's a blind date I'm actually excited for.
Now only 13 or so more weeks until we hear "It's a..." ugh I can not wait!
XO
Leah
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
Monday, April 4, 2016
Excuses, Excuses, Excuses
Some days I feel like I am so full of excuses I need to literally shake myself. Excuses for everything, I'm too tired, I'm pregnant, I don't feel well. But what it comes down to is the fact these excuses don't hurt me, they hurt my family.
To say the least some days I feel like a failure. I feel like a failure as a mother, and a wife. Everynight i go to bed thinking tomorrow will be different and it never is. And I honestly need to snap myself out of whatever funk I'm in because I'm getting annoyed with myself.
Towards Hannah, I have not been the mother she deserves. Unfortunatly I have made this stupid device that's in my hand 24/7 more important than my daughter. Like really Leah! Why do I care so much about what's going on in other people's lives when I should be focusing on my own. I should be playing more and reading more with her (even though if I read Goodnight moon one more time I may go crazy) she's only going to be this little once and I need to be a mother who is present, and I'm going to try to do that more. I owe it to her. I'm the only mother she will ever have and I want to be the best one at that.
Towards my husband, I have not been the loving wife I should be. He works hard outside of the house all day so that I can be home with hannah. And I shouldn't take that for granted. He should come home to a clean house and a hot meal (even though I'm not the greatest cook I should still try) I'll admit it, I take his niceness for granted and that is just awful. We're a team and I need to start acting like it. Now these past few weeks Have been hard with him being sick, hannahs surgery, and now I'm actually sick but I can still try my hardest to keep things in order. I really should figure out his love language and make that a priority. Even though he never reads my blog (ahem ahem lol) I do promise to work harder around the house and quite frankly be the wife he deserves
I got this shirt "proverbs 31 wifey" I think a year ago or so. And when I pulled it out of the drawer to see if it would fit everything kinda clicked and made me want to get this all out in the open. Now I know some people do not like the wife described in Proverbs 31. But to be honest I need to strive to be like her. I need to provide for my family's needs, by speaking wisdom and truth instead of hurtful and gossip. Provide food, and do my housework even if it means getting up before everyone else. I need to ultimately make my family a priority instead of materialistic things. I'm ashamed of the mom and wife I am now, but there's time to turn things around and be the person I truly desire to be. And you better believe I'm going to work hard to become her and stay that way! I'm thankful that I'm figuring this all out know and not later in life
XO
Leah
To say the least some days I feel like a failure. I feel like a failure as a mother, and a wife. Everynight i go to bed thinking tomorrow will be different and it never is. And I honestly need to snap myself out of whatever funk I'm in because I'm getting annoyed with myself.
Towards Hannah, I have not been the mother she deserves. Unfortunatly I have made this stupid device that's in my hand 24/7 more important than my daughter. Like really Leah! Why do I care so much about what's going on in other people's lives when I should be focusing on my own. I should be playing more and reading more with her (even though if I read Goodnight moon one more time I may go crazy) she's only going to be this little once and I need to be a mother who is present, and I'm going to try to do that more. I owe it to her. I'm the only mother she will ever have and I want to be the best one at that.
Towards my husband, I have not been the loving wife I should be. He works hard outside of the house all day so that I can be home with hannah. And I shouldn't take that for granted. He should come home to a clean house and a hot meal (even though I'm not the greatest cook I should still try) I'll admit it, I take his niceness for granted and that is just awful. We're a team and I need to start acting like it. Now these past few weeks Have been hard with him being sick, hannahs surgery, and now I'm actually sick but I can still try my hardest to keep things in order. I really should figure out his love language and make that a priority. Even though he never reads my blog (ahem ahem lol) I do promise to work harder around the house and quite frankly be the wife he deserves
I got this shirt "proverbs 31 wifey" I think a year ago or so. And when I pulled it out of the drawer to see if it would fit everything kinda clicked and made me want to get this all out in the open. Now I know some people do not like the wife described in Proverbs 31. But to be honest I need to strive to be like her. I need to provide for my family's needs, by speaking wisdom and truth instead of hurtful and gossip. Provide food, and do my housework even if it means getting up before everyone else. I need to ultimately make my family a priority instead of materialistic things. I'm ashamed of the mom and wife I am now, but there's time to turn things around and be the person I truly desire to be. And you better believe I'm going to work hard to become her and stay that way! I'm thankful that I'm figuring this all out know and not later in life
XO
Leah
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